Light-Headed Strangeness
Funny thing about sinus trouble... there are times when it isn't pain that makes you feel odd it is a pressure that makes you feel a bit drunk, the difficulty breathing that adds a light-headedness. And to think people probably pay great sums of money to achieve this floating strangeness.
Add that sensation to the year coming to a close AND toss in the fact that New Year's Eve offers up a blue moon this year and you've got a tendency to ramble, wax philosophical and wonder where the "funny" brownies went.
The year in review... it began with excitement, a new president and a sense of hope and change. Eventually the economy did begin to turn somewhat and the stock market seems intent on ending the year on a positive note (of course I have just now jinxed it). Throughout the year there were friends who dealt with awful health problems, the fun of a high school reunion, the joy of taking in a wonderful abandoned kitten, great book club reads, not nearly enough time to garden and other assorted hits and misses.
Oh sure year end bonuses were puny and raises small if they came at all but can't you feel it? The tide beginning to turn? I'm still feeling optimistic although a bit battered thanks to all the fussing and fighting in Congress and the media. Not too thrilled with the tea bag silliness either but since we are a nation wherein you have the right to voice your opinion (and spell things incorrectly on your protest signs and still expect to be taken seriously - have you seen some of those things? Really!) I'm not going to complain to stand in the way of their right to yell, scream, stomp their feet, etc.
Hard to focus with this sinus thing (and Pirates of the Caribbean on TV) but that is rather the point of this rant. To jump around the year and look at it from several angles at once. Through a prism perhaps. Something that cuts it all into different bits of the spectrum more easily examined. Wouldn't that be nice? To be able to look back at the year in pieces, in colors and with clarity? But human nature and the human "condition" isn't prone to clarity. Rather we color our decisions, recollections, choices and our very lives with emotion and wishfulness. We even re-write those recollections with denial on occasion. Not complaining... part of that optimistic outlook I mentioned earlier is to have hope and wishfulness for something better, to not be afraid of emotion.
So 2009 then... not a bad year. Not a great year on some levels but overall I haven't complaints that amount to anything. Of course that could just be the sinus pressure talking.
Add that sensation to the year coming to a close AND toss in the fact that New Year's Eve offers up a blue moon this year and you've got a tendency to ramble, wax philosophical and wonder where the "funny" brownies went.
The year in review... it began with excitement, a new president and a sense of hope and change. Eventually the economy did begin to turn somewhat and the stock market seems intent on ending the year on a positive note (of course I have just now jinxed it). Throughout the year there were friends who dealt with awful health problems, the fun of a high school reunion, the joy of taking in a wonderful abandoned kitten, great book club reads, not nearly enough time to garden and other assorted hits and misses.
Oh sure year end bonuses were puny and raises small if they came at all but can't you feel it? The tide beginning to turn? I'm still feeling optimistic although a bit battered thanks to all the fussing and fighting in Congress and the media. Not too thrilled with the tea bag silliness either but since we are a nation wherein you have the right to voice your opinion (and spell things incorrectly on your protest signs and still expect to be taken seriously - have you seen some of those things? Really!) I'm not going to complain to stand in the way of their right to yell, scream, stomp their feet, etc.
Hard to focus with this sinus thing (and Pirates of the Caribbean on TV) but that is rather the point of this rant. To jump around the year and look at it from several angles at once. Through a prism perhaps. Something that cuts it all into different bits of the spectrum more easily examined. Wouldn't that be nice? To be able to look back at the year in pieces, in colors and with clarity? But human nature and the human "condition" isn't prone to clarity. Rather we color our decisions, recollections, choices and our very lives with emotion and wishfulness. We even re-write those recollections with denial on occasion. Not complaining... part of that optimistic outlook I mentioned earlier is to have hope and wishfulness for something better, to not be afraid of emotion.
So 2009 then... not a bad year. Not a great year on some levels but overall I haven't complaints that amount to anything. Of course that could just be the sinus pressure talking.
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